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[Feb. 12th, 2005|03:24 pm] |
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| | solsbury hill | ] |
So YEAH after a really hard week Im glad to say its over!!!
I have my cousin back for the weekend YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!
I realized that my life is really great after I talked to my drunk friends last night. Ash I cant think of another person I'd rather go to UML with ...haha and Al your home so much its like you go there too! Sam I just hope you dont drop out for the fourth time ...ha . I love you guys
So this kid Jon I know is going to SDSU and asked me to be his roomate in an apartment ... and all I thought was I cant leave uml and all the great people I no and love ...so im not happy here and i am happy here im sure it would be the same if i was there ,....i just cant win inside my own brain .
I think I want one job ... ya no that you only work at 4 nights a week ..that way i think maybe school wont be so hard ...but jobs arent as easy to find as people think....so for now ill jsut stay with the three i have
Valentines Day is monday ... TJ said that he had to work so Im not doing anything who wants a date??? I really wish we had our valentines day yankee swap but maybe next year ...
Well I could do my homework but i dont want to and I could clean my room but i dont want to either so i think ill just waste more time until its time for saturday night :)
PS - I HAVENT BEEN DRUNK IN FOREVER ....wierd .... |
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| where my dreams went .... |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|10:54 pm] |
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| | jimi hendris hey joe | ] |
Harlem -
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore-
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
-Langston Hughes
I go to sdsu , live there , dont work alot but enough, ive lost a lot of wieght, i have great new college friends and i love my life
ha i go to ulowell live with my parents have 3 jobs 2 majors 5 classes and never do anything but work sleep and go to school ....im always broke the way ill be in life ... my parents arent divorced yet cus they cant afford to so i get to live in hell with the two of them until i graduate but they got what they wanted me at home going ot u lowell and un happy
someone should have told me i needed money to have dreams in life ...honestly
i feel like im sinking and nothing gonna pull me out this time |
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|09:47 pm] |
Well the holidays are now over , I am now poor and have 58 dollars to my name. My dad cant walk and therefor isnt working and i have two weeks to find 1700 dollars or i cant go to shool at UML ....my dreams are now truly the shittest ever, I am praying I can go to a shitty school , live at home and keep my three pointless jobs. ALL I have to say is to all you people back for brake thinking home sucks ...this is my college career so fuck off your only home for a month...
i was dd on new years eve , my boyfriend (the biggest idiot person ever) just made me cry after i went to his family party for 4 hours to sit alone or with his mother and her friend telling me how many girls he was all over on a cruise they went on 6 months ago.
I MISS MY FRIENDS ...i felt like i was gonna do so much on brake and all im doing is trying to truck on ....I GIVE UP ILL ALWAYS BE POOR ILL ALWAYS HAVE TO WORK MORE THEN MOST AND ILL ALWAYS HAVE BAD LUCK!!!
LATER LIVE JOURNAL
ps who thinks my new years change should be to be more positive hahhahaha |
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[Dec. 12th, 2004|10:26 pm] |
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| | Matt Raynek | ] |
What is love? ...
love is listening to your best friend talk about a boy even though you have a term paper due you havent started
love is realizing a person's faults and seeing them as part of that person and still loving them
love is the smile you cant get off your face when you see someone you cant get enough off
love is never having to tell someone your feelings and them just knowing what is on your mind
love is always forgiving your mother no matter how stupid you think she is
love is always loving your daughter no matter how much she doesn't get it
love is doing something you dont want to do cus you know someone else really wants you to do it
love is in the pictures you keep
love is for head kisses
love is latenight drunk dials to say "hi"
love is being a bitch when you need to be
love is a dance that never ends
love is in a panera bread lunch
love is a text message that runs out of room
love is a great cup of coffee
love is never ending forgiveness
love is going an hour out of your way to pick up a drunk friend who wants to go home
love is seeing a person make a mistake but letting them figure it out
love is telling your friend she looks fat in those pants
love is telling your friend she looks to thin in that shirt
love is knowing that person would have your back in a bar fight
love is whatever you want it to be
-kto |
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| lets get this week over ! |
[Dec. 6th, 2004|02:36 pm] |
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| |  chipper | ] |
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| | my dad on the phone | ] |
so its the last week of classes before finals and i just cant wait for this to be over. I feel like so much has gone by so fast but its gonna be a great feeling to move on from it all and only have to worry about working ...yayaya
i miss so many boro bitches its like wow, come home girls come home.
lets get this Xmas party started!!!!
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ive journal sidenote its snowing wow!
off to some more work - later live journal KTO |
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| stress stinks ....booze works! |
[Dec. 2nd, 2004|11:17 pm] |
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| | the sound of my cat breathing | ] |
I have had such a stressful day for some odd reason I feel like to huge rocks are running my way from both sides.
I got up late -
FOUND A MOOSE IN THE SHOWER -
to go class on time +
found out i had a forgotten paper due -
went to lunch with ashlyn +
realized im the worst money manager ever -
found out i still have to get a loan for 1700 before i can register for classes -
told my mom and she acted like it was my fault she told me she would help pay it -
went to a really boring class -
on time again +
went to work in a wet shirt i had to air dry in the car -
got stopped later for work behind a school bus -2x
got to work had a boat loud to do to get up to speed -
broke a machine -
my boss called in to scream at me -
boss called in again -
machine fixed +
felt so stressed got some chocolate +
fucked up a customers order -
got to go home on time and did all i had to +
found out im working next saturday night -
came home wrought a lot of my paper +
got to tell you all about my lame ass day +
realized your all out boozing it up right now cus you all get ot have a real college life , depressed myself realizing im on my computer at 11:30 on a thursday night -2x
just thought about how drunk im getting tomorrow +++++++++++++
LATER LIVE JOURNAL |
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| Thanksgiving ..... |
[Nov. 24th, 2004|11:56 am] |
Tomorrow is thanksgiving everyone .... yaya and I have been sitting in class thinking about how much I want this week to be over and what not and I realized what am I thankful for today?
HERES MY LIST :
my family
my house
my friends!
even the dynasty a little bit ..its a car it moves right?
...... i love the relationships i have with all my friends cus each one is truly different in a special way because all of you are special people happy holiday !!!! ps...lets get drunk |
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| trust |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|11:47 pm] |
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trust is something that you work hard to get and with the littlest f*ck up is gone. With that said I want to say i have never known a person in my life that hasn't f*cked up there for i have never known a person i think should be trusted. how was that for bitter KTO |
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| Who effin knows.... |
[Oct. 30th, 2004|09:41 pm] |
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| | the pipes | ] |
Well It's Saturday the day I couildnt wait for all week and now all I want is Sunday.
I don't know how or why but I feel so many things right now feel so stressed out and confused about so much.
(I have written this three times now and still nothing makes sence )
I feel like the ugly little girl with a patch on her eye and a hole in her shirt that had no friends cus she didnt talk till 3 grade and use to hide under her desk when the world scared her is coming back.
I talked to Greg Minter the other day a kid that broke my heart , fucked with my head and put me in the worst depression ever and its just so weird how a person that you use to know every thing about every event every tragedy every body part how you can now be total strangers. All we ended up talking about after all the bullshit was "How he missed how my feet always got cold" --- it was just fucked!
My boyfriend now I dont even fuckin know about. It's like it takes me to be in tears for him to understand what gets me upset. Then somehow I end up the asshole : like saying to his bestfriend " sucks your girl is turning 21 now you cant use that as an excuss anymore for her not to come" then the Next weekend says to me babe its not my fault you cnat come your not 21 ...but he doesnt use it as an excuss!!! yeah totally! Even though I end up the bitch i feel like im the one that bends and forgives all the time.
I cant finish this im to upset ...im going to get fucked up with my friend lawler later live journal |
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[Oct. 25th, 2004|01:39 am] |
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| | the sound of my washer | ] |
hello hello ,
I have finally gotten into my pj's after a crazy as weekend!
Friday night we celebrated my day o birth at Lori's and Had a Mutha Fuckin Plast ...even though ( boys reading this ear muffs till like line 5)i dropped a birth control pill in my drunkin state and now even though i havent had sex since feel pregnant .. its such a weird feeling to want your period to come! haha. Well thank you Lori and Mike for having such a fun night at your lovely apartment.
To all my girls that came home or out with us Thank you! Allyson got me a lovely card ( even though i think she gave more to lawler ;)) and Ashlyn gave me the best b day gift ever a great picture of Marky Mark now hanging next to me nightly. Thanks girls
Nana O turned the big 80 and had a rockin party... Shes the coolest nana any girl could have ...haha bitches!!!!
So just when I got rested and thought I was spending the night infront of the tube we went to Boston ...one word FUNNNNNN!!!!! best idea ever so great i loved it and spent under 5 bucks .... watched a game at fenway out side on a limo and saw all the action ...i heart the ae crew.
(***SIDENOTE : ASHLYN KISSED A GROSS HIPPIE THAT HAD HIS HAIR PARTLY DREEDED!!! AND A GAY KID aka Andrew!****)
ok that's it for now but i just wanted to say i had a good weekend and wanted to thank everyone that came around and had fun.
(*** PS SIDENOTE Meg & Ameral We must get together another time in boston slutbags lets do that shit ***) ok im tired now and cold love you kto |
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